This is PAIN
She beat her feet into the cold tile of the aisle
Voices judge with middle class indifference over the soft comfort of muzac
She thinks, “milk or bread?”
Which will provide the comfort of love in her babies empty bellies?
Which will provide what was left of her dignity?
78 cent bread
The soft empty kind
That mashed to the top off her mouth as she sat cold and cried
Her babies crawled just to where her heart lay splayed on the floor,
“Mamma we want milk”
“Next week babies,
Next week,
We shall dine on meat and milk.”
And she thought,
“I will take the bus to the place that promised that I could
Dance
There are places that still will hire me worn
Tired
&Empty
There are men that still want me
For twenty dollars
& for twenty dollars I will buy you
Warmth
I will buy you
Little morsels to fill your hollow bellies
I will fill my emptiness as I hold you tight
Twenty dollars will buy you my embrace
For twenty dollars
I will sell my soul"(and all my parts)
She learned to close her eyes
While they appeared open
She learned to stop screaming in her head
As they grazed upon her fields
She learned to stop seeing them at all as they
Devoured her hopelessness in big sloppy bites
She learned to stop imagining them dead
As they they crawled on her skin
She learned to block out their greedy bloodshot eyes
As she tucked her babies safely into bed.
january 2010
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